Choco.Hot.Choco

2009-12-18T16:45:00.000-08:00

i dont have the trust in you,

BOTH of you.

*i have limits, so treat me well

treat me bad, just see how it turn to be bad, really bad..*

rahsiaa

2009-12-13T14:38:00.000-08:00

its not for revenge or something

i just think that i need to remind u of your promises

"not going to hurt you"

saw some changes today.

thank you.

im going with your flow

:)

hope whatever that came u be strong.

be strong and never stop trying to be better :)

me myself healing and i hope ull heal too, by time :)

leff u lesung pipit! :P

bai!

p.s i love you! :P

bullshit

2009-12-11T05:28:00.000-08:00

When my world is falling apart
When there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I look at you

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can’t
Find my way home anymore
That’s when I look at you

When I look At You
I see forgiveness I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars Hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I Know I’m Not Alone.

i hope.

thanks,it hurts..

if u think they're right.. up to you..

what they want? they want this to end?

it already started and why do they have to bring this up all over again,so many times..

u drag me in this

u drag me this far..

if u think im just the same as others..

maybe ur just right.

leff

2009-12-10T00:29:00.000-08:00

open up and saw this :)

thanks gemuk!

u know what, sometimes u are so annoying but i leff :P

sometimes ur so unpredictable but u teach me about life

sometimes u have mood swing and it teaches me to be strong :P

leff u gemuk!

:)

2009-11-25T20:33:00.001-08:00

“You don’t just automatically love someone. you have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can’t be jealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable.”-eletheowel

pissed day

2009-11-25T10:37:00.000-08:00

dont treat me like a junk

i know who i am

no need to remind me.

dont make the trust gone

like how they did

i hope ur different

appreciate me more like i appreciate you.

*pissed again*

pissed

2009-11-25T02:25:00.000-08:00

fuck la

benci gilaa

rimasssss

bodoh

setupid

that is you

get a life!

i have my own life, sukehatila aku nak buat apa!

who are you

u dnt even know me!

fuck offf!

and you..

sometimes i just dnt undertsand you

what am i to you?

nobody maybe.

*pissed*

:)

2009-11-23T07:33:00.001-08:00

you put a smile on my face when things goes down :)

thank you leff!

:)

:|

2009-11-23T04:28:00.000-08:00

i miss and need u NOW!

fuck off

2009-11-23T04:24:00.000-08:00

they warned

but i never though u r a real theft

fuck you very very much

go to rich people bitch!

*emotionally unstable*

:)

2009-11-22T10:59:00.000-08:00

ive decided to have a sem leave.

its been a hectic month .

2 weeks of holidays sucks, too much things happend, too many sleepless nights with sleeping pills, too little rest..

i just need more time cz i just cant focus now.

semangat baru, harap2 betul2 memberi semangat, cz i really fell hard this time.

haihhh what a life but go go chayo! :D

leff! :)

miss mama,abah,adik,aan,kak lyn and friendss!!!! huhu

and miss him more :)

it happend just in a blink of an eye but i trust that we can go that far,i just feel the trust :)

:)

2009-11-20T21:38:00.000-08:00

and i keep on smiling since i woke up

missing you :)

nuff said :)

2009-11-20T10:23:00.000-08:00

youre the sweetest thing ever :)

"bye cheot"

kau laguku kau irama terindah :)

*butterflies*

mihh naruto! :)

wink wink

2009-11-19T12:07:00.001-08:00

night to remember

~party like a rockstar~

9.11.09

:)

2009-11-19T10:56:00.000-08:00

missing you dear crazy fat boy :)

pissed

2009-11-15T22:18:00.000-08:00

im tired

seriously fucking tired.

i would have just jump down this 4th floor cz im tired of what life have been

not again

im sick of this issues

issues of peoples heart

issues of others heart

till i have to sacrifice mine

till i lost every single of what i had once.

im tired

im pissed

im sick of it

if u think u want it that way, go on.

if u think it wont work out then move on.

dont drag me to that hell, its not going to happen thrice

im tired

fucking tired

tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired

tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired

*have you ever felt so sad till you cant even let the tears came out, just pain in the heart and breathing is fucking hard cause you are tired of the same issues that u know how it will end....you loosing*

2009-11-09T01:01:00.000-08:00

I love you. I'm in love you with you. And I am disappointed in you. No one, not even you will know the level of love I have for you.

why did u came when i know im trying to move on

i want a new life but im scared

im scared because you'll haunt me

im scared because im tired of feeling this way

im scared because im starting to loosing my way

im scared because my life is almost abnormal

im scared because i dont know things for sure..

im scared ull came back and i ended up hurting the other

"just friends..just friends.."

what what what

2009-11-07T02:25:00.000-08:00

im scared i might be falling for you and you will not catch.

im scared that i put hope but its just hope

im scared we will get close but then it will end

im scared what happend before happend twice

im scared to fall cause im tired of trying hard to get up.

"i think im falling in love with you... shit...."

syg susu

2009-11-04T03:24:00.000-08:00

i need more real friends

the ones that heals you

the ones that always be there

the ones that never left you behind

the ones that never be there just for some reason.

pissed and annoyed.

more than u know

2009-10-24T23:57:00.000-07:00

:'(

“Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good and what is not won’t. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At time, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for.”

*ill just figured out ill wait no matter what it takes, ill just wait*

reddd

2009-10-21T03:33:00.000-07:00

ahh i hate when it is too bright~ hmmmm

i dont know whether to tone it down or just leave it but i think its too red haha

oh jenny

2009-10-20T10:42:00.000-07:00

oh im into make ups. :)

last month i just bought an eye liner, eye shadow, and a lipstic with some brushes. :)

mum and me shared the same thing :)

we shared our dye haha

we shared make ups too :)

oh and i love jenny humfrey!

and im thinking of getting more clothes! haha

and i bought a red dye this time. hope it will be red not orange :P

:)

"i miss you to bits"

:)

2009-10-20T09:18:00.000-07:00

went to desaru today :)

i sat there for 5 hours

i love beaches

and i really need it now :)

i dont care about this tanned skin, i just love beaches cz it makes me calm

:)

"i love u even though i tried not to,i love u more because i miss you"

tum

2009-10-17T10:03:00.000-07:00

ive been trying hard to get a good sleep.

cant i just get my sleep back?

cant u just get off my mind?

i just need my sleep that i hadnt get for this past few days and im sick like hell

it sucks

sucks big time

"i hate bitches, you bitch cant u just go away cz u already get what u want from me, so go away bitch"

..

2009-10-12T09:58:00.001-07:00

what will you do when its falling apart?

what will u do when hope is dust?

what will u do when u still think its a dream?

all i want to do is think a way of being with you...

u know i do

?

2009-10-10T09:29:00.000-07:00

why did u have to think when u feel that u dont want to?

:)

2009-10-10T00:59:00.001-07:00

Hapy Beday laila!!

hope u have a blast n happy last night! :D

wahh minggu ni sangat enjoy ye

karaoke,ikea,maison,lepak,sisha..

oh exhausted but it makes me free from all that thoughts

i hope it last,i really hope but the decision is on you.

to wait or not to wait.

family comes first and thats what made them happy then u go for it

i'll be just fine :)

dont worry

it will be fine

everything do takes time.

thanks ur 1 in a million :)

shep: ur keeping secrets

me: i prefer not to let it out now cz it do hurts but im trying to be okay, it happens before but i hope this time it last, i prefer to keep it personal. im sorry, it do happen quite for some time now but im trying not to think bout it

shep: i heard that story, the choice is in his hand and family do comes first but love still have to count. dont keep it inside like everything is ok, it'll eat u.

me: someday ill tell when things are back to normal or worst :( ill keep on smiling :) love u! :)

*dont worry it be just fine*

hanging

2009-10-08T07:04:00.001-07:00

my heart stops beating

my blood stops flowing

is truth im hearing

i want to know the ending

ikeaaa

2009-10-08T06:23:00.000-07:00

hehehe besttt! :D

nak kacau arep tapi arep penyek tak bekerja pulak hahaha

ohh a fun week a fun life :D

rinduu

2009-10-06T06:42:00.000-07:00

:D

rindu!

sayang!

heart n soul :)

busy week

2009-10-02T13:47:00.000-07:00

saya sayang kawan2 saya! hehe

:D

2009-09-11T12:37:00.000-07:00

it arrived!

weee!

i lefff!

:D

soul

2009-09-06T23:38:00.000-07:00

heart.soul

i found myself crying for 2 days cz im missing them.

i need you badly.

its a hard time and i need u.

i need a hug.

just a hug.

thats more than enough.

now.

because we are just friends

2009-09-05T06:13:00.000-07:00

you just wont learn

you just wont see

you just wont admit

you just wont realize

im always here, needing.

ym

2009-09-04T21:02:00.000-07:00

i hurt,i gave up

i gave up,i open

i open, i love

i love, i trust

i trust, i fall

i fall, i stand

i stand, i look

i look, i see

i see, im me

im me, always be.

always be,you betrayed me.

website

2009-09-04T02:09:00.000-07:00

greates web ive seen!

NVIDIA

PUMA

hey you weve done our work kau yang tak buat kerja kau lepastu kau nak bising2 pehal. u do your work la! bongok! hahaha

*haha dah curang tu curang la jangan nak salahkan org lain. baik punya nak cover, tp semua dh tau kau gila psycho. dun wori :)*

aaaaaaaaaaa i need to selip!

bai!

ide-ass

2009-09-03T08:58:00.000-07:00

2 hours sleep last night

2 hours sleep before buka

i need more

but i cant close my eyes

why?

because

the reason is you

:P

*oh hoobastank plis plis plis come to me!*

aaaa angau tengok muka die hari2 ahaha

hey i need ide-ass!

haha

2009-09-02T00:17:00.001-07:00

"you wanna kill me to ease your feeling? You're wounded and it hurts"- the naked kitchen

handmade

2009-09-01T23:04:00.000-07:00

oh i want to dye my hair in kind of red-chocolate-orangy. hehe boyfy says lets wait for bonus :P hehe

www.etsy.com

heres a blog that sarakay gives me.

im lovin it!

hehe

thanks! :D

handmade is always my thing from schooldays, i even worked at a tailor shop before to learned but the boss is not too good to share knowledge, biasalah bisnes melayu :) i even didnt get paid when i done beading that takes me 3 days to finish! erghhh but i gain experience :) and some of the customers still do contact me but i dont do beading anymore cz it needs a lot of concentration.

something like this :)

oh my blog shop stopped cz were in the process of producing our handmade items, cz i been busy maybe ill wait till holiday :) but some is done! :D

yayyy hari ni buka di yankees bersama kawan2! yumm! :D

barista-ed

2009-09-01T22:21:00.000-07:00

oh im in love with Starbucks hot chocolate! :D

oh remembering the days im working there, it was a great experience, it built me up :)

it teaches how to communicate with peoples and enviroments, it helps u built up communication skills.

the best thing is it teaches you how to make a perfect bevereges, it isnt that simple cz its either espresso first or last.

caramel machiato is the best cz the art of doing it is diff from others beverages :)

oh i wish im still a barista :D 3 drinks a day that makes me a cofeee lover all the way hehe

*oh ada org terasa, im not talking bout u faggot, cz i already made a promise to throw both ugly faggots out of the window :)*

sometimes i do not understand some people. u say u hate me, then just get out of my life and my space. why are you still hanging here? if u think ur better, ur not any better :) cz u know why there are no complete trust in there cz i been there before and what my hearts says from the start, concerning on why his past is so mad and brave to tell all that to me is right. its all about lies. so go do security check for yourself and get out from this space :)

"i dont wanna beleive you"

sorry i dont buy

2009-09-01T13:46:00.000-07:00

i think i know who trying to add me in facebook by pretending to be a mat saleh haha

kat myspace pn add, agak2 la kalau nak kelentong pun,pakai nama nak sama :)

sorry la beb i dont talk to strangers and i do not like to give any info such as where i live to strangers :)

oh for your info i dont accept any unknown faces cz i dont like stalkers like YOU :)

mat saleh celup celup

oh and i just opened my gmail account. and a name pop ups starting by f

guess what someone invite me to sign up for fb.

i have fb dahla wei, i dont need another one kecuali untuk menyiasat sesuatu seperti terkantoinye cerita dahulu tu.

why dont u just add me by my yahoomail instead?

want to give a try?

:)

"sorry i dont buy fake's"

masih berjaga

2009-09-01T12:22:00.000-07:00

menunggu waktu sahur :D

malas nak tidur nanti xbgn hehe

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
yeah I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today

avril-tomorrow

"because i never want to beleive you,forever it may not change"

you judge

2009-09-01T03:27:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey you judge

2009-09-01T01:54:00.000-07:00

kereta sudah ditented :)

lepas ni

tukar rim

tukar cat

:D

mangambil job yang ada untuk mengumpul duit :D

back

2009-09-01T00:51:00.000-07:00

back in seri kembangan :D

drive sorg lagi tp best! heheh

tq abe fairuz belanja seluar wrangler and baju rolling stone yang diimpikan hahah :P

haih sesetengah org masih lg tak faham kenapa org marah pasal tiru avril.

ok contoh black dog bone same dengan lagu org barat gak. ade org marah x? takde.

aizat ade lagu avril same gak tp ade org marah tak? takde.

in conclusion org bukan marah apa, kalau nak sama pun biarla sedap. sedap didengar. kenapa artis kat mlaysia banyak yang nak jadi penyanyi pasal dah popular+ duit byank tak tau buat apa. ur good in acting just be in it.

i heard her singing live before lenka shows start, its not good, ask the people there how many people do stop and hear? there are less than 20 there. search in youtube, singing live. singing and laughing isnt that serious too. sesetengah kita dianugerahkan untuk bagus dalam semua bidang and sesetengah org dianugerahkan bagus dalam satu bidang, jadi jangan jadi tamak. jadilah diri sendiri. itu lagi org suka. be original,thats all they wanted.

tak boleh ke dorg jadi mcm dia ni?

zee avi.

kalau nak ikutkan die xpopular sgt kat sini tp diangkat sampai ke LA. kenapa? cz she got talent. cz shes original. dia dicompare dengan norah jones and joss stone tp shes still tries to be the best. kalau setakat nak setanding dengan negara terdekat je sampai bila nak maju?

ketepikan la soal duit, tak kemana, passion yang buat org hormat kita.

coffee beans, mug or coffee press? or just a voucher?

"sambung kerja kalau tak tak dapat raya :P"

bit my donut

2009-08-30T20:38:00.000-07:00

its all over the net.

even aku berada di jb pn everyone is talking about it.

even aku g spore pn they talk about it.

mana la negara jiran tak marah dengan kita? kalau artis kita selalu sgt nak tiru orang.

haih

kalau taruk nama nanti ade org marah pulak kan. im not attacking u cz the first time my fren shows me the vid aku tak tau pun korang yang buat :)

oh hari ni buka dengan family setelah 2 hari buka dengan boyfy :) semalam buka tepi pantai! dengan makanan besh! :D thank u awak!

oh ade job design baru :) going to do it as a team :)

haha

stop la being angry, if tak suka jangan baca, if u think ur better than me then just dont read okay. i dont care pun if ur better or what cz i beleive in myself and some great people around me. and they do tell me whats right and wrong to do. they do tell me not to do things that is not right, and not just being a friend that always agrees on everything :)

*and they do tell me to delete the previous post cz they said too much anger in that* so i do agree to make myself better :)

oh ade org search bitter ur butt blog. haha kelaka kadang2 org2 mcm ni. thats stalker. and orang yang pendengki kata su :)

"dah dapat kan ape die nak kan,dah rampas ape yang nak dirampaskan,dah ambil ape yang nak diambilkan? ape nak lagi cik? ive thrown everything down the drain and what else do u want kan cik."

"its bitter heart blog that makes u bit your butt"

*big apple 52% coupon is in my hand :)*

solved

2009-08-28T20:35:00.000-07:00

yayyy dah boleh comment ye kawan2 haha kne buat baru tp yang same. so follow la balik hehe :P

ok nak siap2 nak keluar dating :P haha

bai bai bai!

ape menu buka hari ni yep?

good day mate!

2009-08-28T20:13:00.002-07:00

oh i feel better :)

yesterday talk to mum.

she says lifes like that.

theres always bad and good things and sometimes we do bad things and takes time to realize it but those things do make us to be a better person.

mum says, for him, she says she never forgive what he did, as a mum she says its hard to see her daughter treated that way when she trusted him the most. if she have time she do want to meet him and make it clear on his mind that a girl is not like a toy that you can do whatever you want and dump it when you dont. and a mum will always be dissapointed so i hope theres no crossing the line cz we do have a direct contact.

oh okay so i decided to dump all that, not that im scared or whatever but i think it will feel better without all that but im to lazy too choose so i just make it new again :)

yesterday buka dengan boyfy dekat piza hut our feveret! yummmm! tp piza hut dh x dapp sgt dah hehe and he bought me a pair of jeans that i always wanted! :D thank you! heheh

were thinking of going to spore and stock up the belts but im still thinking bout it hehe

oh i forgot about the mtv world stage erghhh

jee says someone saw us in mtv but i want to see it :( hehe

*oh im still waiting for the reply to make it clear cz im still thinking what is it about you?*

"screw you, i love you"-wedding daze

apa2 jela

2009-08-28T20:13:00.001-07:00

owh received a message that im still thinking of what is it about actually?

this anger only goes to that person. whoever that tell any stories tak dilibatkan kecuali yang ingin melibatakan nama sendiri. even how much stories that i knew and i get i never mention if that person didnt want to or whatever. i only mention what i feel about it, about all that bullshit and theres no name. and the anger is not only to that only person also peoples that are not related. so im thinking what?

and me and my fren were thinking this maybe about that avril thingy but seriously its OUR opinion and its not only mine and everybody knows that i do not like a singer that cant sing, mostly people do not like it too. its what we think and 1 of my fren thought about it first only then i realize it. not because its under that person. we do critics other artist too.

so what is it?

ah tak taulah. aku malas nak amik tahu ape2 yang ade kene mengena dengan diri dia. yes i have problem with them but aku bukan org yang bodoh nak libatkan org lain cz i know i dont like it too if it happens to me. so i just wanna say. all the post i have ever mention is him and bunch of my frens and anger not only to him but to some other people too. and i never mention even any hint of his close frens that comes with the stories,not even a close name appear, tq.

theres always this kind of problem in blogs. right? and boyfy says why dont you just private it, i say malas cz i have to do something to approve some of my frens. ill think about it okay.

for now boyfy says just make other post dissapear until we know what is it but its a good exercise to just throw it actually even how angry i am cz theres nothing to be remembered :D . okay up to u. he says lets do a diff blog that only a bunch of us knows, only us knows what were talking and others dont :). thats good because stalker is all over this blog. :P

oh to you, im sorry but i never mention anything about you or u even cross my mind while im writing,or anything to harm you or whatever. i just dont get it. and we dont get it too.

do i have to do this en boyfy?

he says yes you have to.

why?

because someone already misunderstood you.

but i dont do anything?

biarla je die nak fikir ape, lets just dump that rubbish ok :)

okehh :D

now for real well dump it hehe

move to tumblr lg bagus :)

*ade org tanye stereng* :P mulah2 aja loh